I think I'm broken

I apologise for a messy post but I just need to rant about my stupid self for a moment

most of my life since I was about 7 when I piled on weight and had a hard family life I've found that I'm unable to motivate myself at all. (I'm pathetic)

It pains me so much that whatever I have a passion for dies fast. for example I've been into writing lately and I've loved it and i still love it. However, like today, I want to write something but I just can't motivate myself to do it. Today I was supposed to work out but I just couldn't motivate myself to do it at all. I want to though, It's like my brain is fitting with its self to the point where i just do nothing for hours, it's because of this that I'm bad in school. I asked my mum about it and she had no good explanation for me and simply just told me nothing could be done.

I'm deeply saddened by the fact I can't just move and do anything.

Is there like, over the counter medication for hormonal imbalance or am I just a waste of space? I have no Idea what to do and It's driving me to depression. I have dealt with depression before but this is bringing be to a mental place I do not want to be in. I'm so lost

I apologise for a messy post but I just need to rant about my stupid self for a momentmost of my life since I was about 7 when I piled on weight and had a hard family life I've found that I'm unable to motivate myself at all. (I'm pathetic)It pains me so much that whatever I have a passion for dies fast. for example I've been into writing lately and I've loved it and i still love it. However, like today, I want to write something but I just can't motivate myself to do it. Today I was supposed to work out but I just couldn't motivate myself to do it at all. I want to though, It's like my brain is fitting with its self to the point where i just do nothing for hours, it's because of this that I'm bad in school. I asked my mum about it and she had no good explanation for me and simply just told me nothing could be done.I'm deeply saddened by the fact I can't just move and do anything.Is there like, over the counter medication for hormonal imbalance or am I just a waste of space? I have no Idea what to do and It's driving me to depression. I have dealt with depression before but this is bringing be to a mental place I do not want to be in. I'm so lost https://ift.tt/eA8V8J https://ift.tt/2LIzCuw