Dysphoria issues?

'Sup reddit, first time posting here but I didn't know who else to ask, plus I wanted some feed back about it. I've been having some pretty bad dysphoria but I haven't really seen anyone having the same kind as me. I'm on testosterone ( 1 year + 3 months ) and it makes me very happy and I feel more socially acceptable. I'm never really misgendered and I have very supportive people around me who somewhat understand.

Lately I've been having some really bad thoughts and my brain keeps trying to remind me that I'm a female or trying to convince me I am female. Though, I have never felt female in my life and I've always known I was male since I was a child. I can recall multiple times where I realized that I was a dude.

I missed two shots recently and I've had a couple of friends telling me that it could just be a hormonal imbalance since the estrogen in my body boosted from missing my shots. I don't regret going on T and I don't want to live life as a female at all because I feel like I am a male. Recently everything I've been doing reminds me that I'm "not a real man."

I guess I'm just really insecure as well because I'm a gay man and my brain keeps telling me that I'm faking and that I'm cis female that just likes guys. I also like anime and art and I don't know why it makes me so insecure about my gender. I do plan to get on top surgery as well because I really hate my chest. My boyfriend doesn't really get dysphoria so he's trying to help me as much as he can and my best friend is a cis female so they both don't really understand where I'm coming from.

I guess I'm scared that I'm faking when I know that I'm not because I finally feel somewhat happy with myself. I've heard a few people say it could also just be because I have depression/anxiety. I just feel weird because I've never had dysphoria /this bad/ to the point I can't even leave my bed. I feel really disconnected from myself and I was just wondering if anyone as felt the same way.

'Sup reddit, first time posting here but I didn't know who else to ask, plus I wanted some feed back about it. I've been having some pretty bad dysphoria but I haven't really seen anyone having the same kind as me. I'm on testosterone ( 1 year + 3 months ) and it makes me very happy and I feel more socially acceptable. I'm never really misgendered and I have very supportive people around me who somewhat understand.Lately I've been having some really bad thoughts and my brain keeps trying to remind me that I'm a female or trying to convince me I am female. Though, I have never felt female in my life and I've always known I was male since I was a child. I can recall multiple times where I realized that I was a dude.I missed two shots recently and I've had a couple of friends telling me that it could just be a hormonal imbalance since the estrogen in my body boosted from missing my shots. I don't regret going on T and I don't want to live life as a female at all because I feel like I am a male. Recently everything I've been doing reminds me that I'm "not a real man."I guess I'm just really insecure as well because I'm a gay man and my brain keeps telling me that I'm faking and that I'm cis female that just likes guys. I also like anime and art and I don't know why it makes me so insecure about my gender. I do plan to get on top surgery as well because I really hate my chest. My boyfriend doesn't really get dysphoria so he's trying to help me as much as he can and my best friend is a cis female so they both don't really understand where I'm coming from.I guess I'm scared that I'm faking when I know that I'm not because I finally feel somewhat happy with myself. I've heard a few people say it could also just be because I have depression/anxiety. I just feel weird because I've never had dysphoria /this bad/ to the point I can't even leave my bed. I feel really disconnected from myself and I was just wondering if anyone as felt the same way. https://ift.tt/eA8V8J https://ift.tt/2QN4Y2G