Incoming long post; I'll put a tldr at the bottom.
Because it's absolutely frigid, last night was the first time in a couple days I took a real shower instead of just wiping down with a washcloth. I was self-indulgent and overly thorough, and suddenly I noticed how much my body has changed in the past few months. I don't pay that much attention to the details of my body on a daily basis normally, but there's definitely something up.
I was put on birth control when I was 14 for a vaguely named "hormonal imbalance," and almost five months ago at almost-18 I switched to a lower dose, extended cycle formula so I can avoid having my period monthly and have it every three months instead. With the lower dose of feminizing hormones, I'm seeing a lot of totally welcome masculinization. I have gradually thickening peach-fuzz-like hair on my face which I didn't have before; it's not highly visible, but very noticeable to the touch. I've also had thickening and lengthening of my arm and leg hair, with some darkening as well (though it was a bit dark to begin with, just sparser). I also looked down last night and realized the fuzz on my belly is thickening and the "happy trail" I already had seems like it's going to fill in more. I'm simultaneously ecstatic and also confused. I suspect that I'm intersex in some capacity and have for a while, but I don't want to go off my birth control right now to have levels tested.
On top of that, I've been IDing as nonbinary (more recently transmasc nonbinary) and a lesbian for roughly a year now, but I'm currently seriously questioning if I'm a trans guy instead. I'm attached to lesbian culture, but I also never clicked with the cis lesbian community - I'm astoundingly more comfortable around trans/nonbinary people. I was terrified of losing my relationship with my girlfriend, but now that I've told her I'm questioning again she's reassured me without a doubt that it's not an issue either way; I feel like that anxiety was holding me back, and now that I know this I'm growing more confident.
I guess overall I'm just curious if anyone else has had a similar experience on either front, and what you ended up working out.
tl;dr - pretty sure I'm intersex in some way and the slight masculinization is making me incredibly happy, currently questioning if nonbinary or just outright a trans guy and want to talk to anyone with a similar experience or advice
Incoming long post; I'll put a tldr at the bottom.Because it's absolutely frigid, last night was the first time in a couple days I took a real shower instead of just wiping down with a washcloth. I was self-indulgent and overly thorough, and suddenly I noticed how much my body has changed in the past few months. I don't pay that much attention to the details of my body on a daily basis normally, but there's definitely something up.I was put on birth control when I was 14 for a vaguely named "hormonal imbalance," and almost five months ago at almost-18 I switched to a lower dose, extended cycle formula so I can avoid having my period monthly and have it every three months instead. With the lower dose of feminizing hormones, I'm seeing a lot of totally welcome masculinization. I have gradually thickening peach-fuzz-like hair on my face which I didn't have before; it's not highly visible, but very noticeable to the touch. I've also had thickening and lengthening of my arm and leg hair, with some darkening as well (though it was a bit dark to begin with, just sparser). I also looked down last night and realized the fuzz on my belly is thickening and the "happy trail" I already had seems like it's going to fill in more. I'm simultaneously ecstatic and also confused. I suspect that I'm intersex in some capacity and have for a while, but I don't want to go off my birth control right now to have levels tested.On top of that, I've been IDing as nonbinary (more recently transmasc nonbinary) and a lesbian for roughly a year now, but I'm currently seriously questioning if I'm a trans guy instead. I'm attached to lesbian culture, but I also never clicked with the cis lesbian community - I'm astoundingly more comfortable around trans/nonbinary people. I was terrified of losing my relationship with my girlfriend, but now that I've told her I'm questioning again she's reassured me without a doubt that it's not an issue either way; I feel like that anxiety was holding me back, and now that I know this I'm growing more confident.I guess overall I'm just curious if anyone else has had a similar experience on either front, and what you ended up working out.tl;dr - pretty sure I'm intersex in some way and the slight masculinization is making me incredibly happy, currently questioning if nonbinary or just outright a trans guy and want to talk to anyone with a similar experience or advice https://ift.tt/eA8V8J http://bit.ly/2GdgkdC
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