⚠️ You Have Been Warned?⚠️ Maybe it’s a hormonal imbalance that I feel like this but I’m just upset atm. I’m scared, like I thought my body can handle it, and if can’t then it was a piece of crap anyways it’s weak, 500 calories is already a lot tbh I want to do 400 but I suffer hypoglycemia so I workout the 500. I feel so strange I don’t feel like I’m starving but my insides are twisting and it’s leading me to believe my organs are failing.
For a split second after a few months I wanted to go into recovery though I’m most likely a wannarexic .-. I’m sick of counting the calories and pushing myself till I limp the next few days. I want to be normal but I’m afraid if I stop I’ll eat and I don’t want that if I eat it means I won’t get the body I want. If I could just drop 15lbs I’m sure I’ll stop I’m still in control I mean I eat 500 I’m in control, I mean sometimes I want to lose more but it’ll depend on what I see in the mirror and scale. I cry when I realize how fat I became, if I wasn’t in such a toxic household would I have stayed skinny? Fudge it makes me want to die thinking about it how did I let myself become so lose? If I can just get the 10 year old body back I’d be happy, I know an 18 year old shouldn’t have that figure but it’s okay I’m willing to sacrifice. This is what my life is dedicated to.
⚠️ Female Related Thing Just A Heads Up ⚠️
Also kind of re-read my stuff kind of sounds Ana? Idk it’s my mind wishing I could just starve like I see in the thinspo; what do I know. But I know I am a wannrexic because Ana’s don’t binge right? Though I think I binge because of my girl thing 🥺 I’m positive I fixed the binge issue though.
⚠️ You Have Been Warned?⚠️ Maybe it’s a hormonal imbalance that I feel like this but I’m just upset atm. I’m scared, like I thought my body can handle it, and if can’t then it was a piece of crap anyways it’s weak, 500 calories is already a lot tbh I want to do 400 but I suffer hypoglycemia so I workout the 500. I feel so strange I don’t feel like I’m starving but my insides are twisting and it’s leading me to believe my organs are failing.For a split second after a few months I wanted to go into recovery though I’m most likely a wannarexic .-. I’m sick of counting the calories and pushing myself till I limp the next few days. I want to be normal but I’m afraid if I stop I’ll eat and I don’t want that if I eat it means I won’t get the body I want. If I could just drop 15lbs I’m sure I’ll stop I’m still in control I mean I eat 500 I’m in control, I mean sometimes I want to lose more but it’ll depend on what I see in the mirror and scale. I cry when I realize how fat I became, if I wasn’t in such a toxic household would I have stayed skinny? Fudge it makes me want to die thinking about it how did I let myself become so lose? If I can just get the 10 year old body back I’d be happy, I know an 18 year old shouldn’t have that figure but it’s okay I’m willing to sacrifice. This is what my life is dedicated to.⚠️ Female Related Thing Just A Heads Up ⚠️Also kind of re-read my stuff kind of sounds Ana? Idk it’s my mind wishing I could just starve like I see in the thinspo; what do I know. But I know I am a wannrexic because Ana’s don’t binge right? Though I think I binge because of my girl thing 🥺 I’m positive I fixed the binge issue though. https://ift.tt/eA8V8J https://ift.tt/318ddL2
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