My mother is sick, I take her to her appointments, the store, shops, etc, because she can't drive anymore and I haven't had time to go to the doctor/dentist for myself.
side note My parents never believed in going to the doctor for anything other than having a cold. Ex. I've never in my life been to the doctors office for a general check-up. They also always used to scare me with news or stories of people going missing/snatched/killed/ bad relationships/how god hates that sin, im stuck, because it worked! I've never wanted to leave and/or date anyone for most of my life, now I know it's completely different but in my head there's still a little voice saying DANGER DANGER DANGER!
After a while of just living with my cavities and whatever I have, I had to start self diagnosing to ensure im not on death's door. I've come to the conclusion,with help from my grandmother, that I have some kind of hormone imbalance. (Runs in my family). I called around to doctors in my area and I found a good candidate, the only problem is I need parental consent. My dad left, so unfortunately my delusional mother is the only thing I have and I'm not 18 for another 150 or so days.
The last few nights for me have become a deal breaker, had awful body aches, my heart was beating a million times faster than normal, etc. AKA Worst nights ever. The next morning after the first time, I went to my mom to tell her she needs to come with me for an appointment and SHE REFUSED! She said I'm not the only person in the world with that problem and her ailment was more important! Throughout the day I had these crazy headaches and the entire time I'm trying close my eyes and relax shes walking around the house and complaining outside of my room about how I'm full of myself and need to take her to her appointments first (which are weeks away), and how if it wasnt for her I wouldn't be alive.
I thought about tricking her but she has to sign me in as a new patient, I can't because I'm not a returning patient.
so I'm sitting here all sad and gronky with no help for another 6 months 💀
pray for me😔
My mother is sick, I take her to her appointments, the store, shops, etc, because she can't drive anymore and I haven't had time to go to the doctor/dentist for myself.side note My parents never believed in going to the doctor for anything other than having a cold. Ex. I've never in my life been to the doctors office for a general check-up. They also always used to scare me with news or stories of people going missing/snatched/killed/ bad relationships/how god hates that sin, im stuck, because it worked! I've never wanted to leave and/or date anyone for most of my life, now I know it's completely different but in my head there's still a little voice saying DANGER DANGER DANGER!After a while of just living with my cavities and whatever I have, I had to start self diagnosing to ensure im not on death's door. I've come to the conclusion,with help from my grandmother, that I have some kind of hormone imbalance. (Runs in my family). I called around to doctors in my area and I found a good candidate, the only problem is I need parental consent. My dad left, so unfortunately my delusional mother is the only thing I have and I'm not 18 for another 150 or so days.The last few nights for me have become a deal breaker, had awful body aches, my heart was beating a million times faster than normal, etc. AKA Worst nights ever. The next morning after the first time, I went to my mom to tell her she needs to come with me for an appointment and SHE REFUSED! She said I'm not the only person in the world with that problem and her ailment was more important! Throughout the day I had these crazy headaches and the entire time I'm trying close my eyes and relax shes walking around the house and complaining outside of my room about how I'm full of myself and need to take her to her appointments first (which are weeks away), and how if it wasnt for her I wouldn't be alive.I thought about tricking her but she has to sign me in as a new patient, I can't because I'm not a returning patient.so I'm sitting here all sad and gronky with no help for another 6 months 💀pray for me😔 https://ift.tt/eA8V8J https://ift.tt/317nOXN
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