In " IM GETTING SURGERY *MY BIG SECRET*" Madison tells us how insecure she is about her postpartum stomach, and how she is getting surgery. She reveals that her fear is so strong, it's to the point that she'll have nightmares about people seeing her stomach.
In their vlog, "MY HUSBAND IS THE PROBLEM", Madison explains how stress and anxiety (and potentially depression) have dominated her life in the past couple of months.
Vlog "Madison is fighting depression". Madison releases "I have had anxiety and depression stuff in the past, but it's just resurfaced with this baby (Halston), and I love her so much, and I love the twins... it's just, so many hormones and so much stress going on in my life." she then compares herself to other instagram Mum's "I know it's fake, but it just seems like they have their lives so together".
Kyler says how he's going to look after the twins for the day.
Madison explains "Alot of the time Kyler wants to put the camera infront of my face..." then Kyler says "What? Come on! Don't say it like that!" so Madison changes it to "Well... Kyler wants to vlog and I'm like, I don't want to vlog! I just want to cry! I just want to cry all day and just sit in my bed because it's so hard."
Kyler takes the twins to Madison's Mum's house with him and then dumps them over there for the night to have a "sleepover" with their cousins who are also there (the twins are 3).
When Kyler gets back to Mad, she says she felt lonely (to her suprise) and saw all the messes and didn't know why they stressed her out because they were cute messes. She told us specifically how one of the twins pulled all the baby wipes out of the packet, she stood there picking them up, missing them, and thought that it was cute, they were playing with the wipes. Kyler laughs.
She explains how a part of having parent anxiety and depression is feeling bad about not being a perfect Mum, so when they leave, you feel all sad. "Like ohhh, I should have played the wipes with them". Then Madison just stares at a wall.
Kyler says how he doesn't understand it because he doesn't feel it and that things are black and white for him. He also says he's just stoked that Madison's Mum is watching the kids for the night. Madison says she just feels sadness. He boasts "I'm good!" in an energetic laughing voice.
Kyler goes all serious and mentions that Madison said she was going to clean up the place while he was gone, but hadn't. She said she had done some.
...I thought this was meant to be a day off for Madison? She was in bed all day depressed and then he says THAT. Like stop trying to guilt trip her! He barely did anything.
"Well I'm probably going to have another panic attack in a day because I didn't get enough done I needed to. But it's too hard."
And lastly, in the famous "MY HUSBAND IS THE PROBLEM" ...which I mean, Kyler you said it not us XD Madison tells us about how she's feeling.
"I just feel like I'm not being the Mom I want to be for my kids. I have so much anxiety and so much stress running through my body and I know I need to go on medication. I used to be so fun and relaxed and patient... and I had come up with all these fun acitivities and I was so... present in their lives, especially when the twins were little, I feel like they had so much like attention from me. Now I have all these other kids that I love... but I can't give my undivided attention to each child. I feel like, I'm like pawning the kids off to my sisters', or pawning them off to my other sister...or, I can barely get through the day with all the kids and I... I just feel like this trip was supposed to be so exciting for them. And instead, I've just been like this crazy stresscase."
"I've got this meeting to go to, and Halston just fell alseep in her carseat, and I don't know... and I'm going to be late to this meeting; I don't want to wake her up. I haven't been taking care of myself very well, my milk supplies going away, cuz I don't eat or drink water all day cuz... and my brains moving at 100 miles per hour. I don't know if any of your guys have had anxiety or depression or anything like that, but you'll understand... if you do. It's really hard to take care of yourself if you have four kids too, I feel like I just do everything for them every second. I'm just trying to be honest with you guys, like I just don't feel like myself at all. I don't want to feel like this anymore, I just want to be calm, and happy like I used to be; I used to be so fun and happy! I don't know if you guys have watched my old vlogs... I don't know, I just feel like things have changed. I can't tell if I've changed, because of a chemical imbalance (or according to Cole, it that doesn't exist ;), or if life is just harder because I have 4 kids and I'm still the same person. *nervous laughter* this vlog is turning into Madison's emotional disaster vlog... Madison's pity party.
Thoughts?
In " IM GETTING SURGERY *MY BIG SECRET*" Madison tells us how insecure she is about her postpartum stomach, and how she is getting surgery. She reveals that her fear is so strong, it's to the point that she'll have nightmares about people seeing her stomach.In their vlog, "MY HUSBAND IS THE PROBLEM", Madison explains how stress and anxiety (and potentially depression) have dominated her life in the past couple of months.Vlog "Madison is fighting depression". Madison releases "I have had anxiety and depression stuff in the past, but it's just resurfaced with this baby (Halston), and I love her so much, and I love the twins... it's just, so many hormones and so much stress going on in my life." she then compares herself to other instagram Mum's "I know it's fake, but it just seems like they have their lives so together".Kyler says how he's going to look after the twins for the day.Madison explains "Alot of the time Kyler wants to put the camera infront of my face..." then Kyler says "What? Come on! Don't say it like that!" so Madison changes it to "Well... Kyler wants to vlog and I'm like, I don't want to vlog! I just want to cry! I just want to cry all day and just sit in my bed because it's so hard."Kyler takes the twins to Madison's Mum's house with him and then dumps them over there for the night to have a "sleepover" with their cousins who are also there (the twins are 3).When Kyler gets back to Mad, she says she felt lonely (to her suprise) and saw all the messes and didn't know why they stressed her out because they were cute messes. She told us specifically how one of the twins pulled all the baby wipes out of the packet, she stood there picking them up, missing them, and thought that it was cute, they were playing with the wipes. Kyler laughs.She explains how a part of having parent anxiety and depression is feeling bad about not being a perfect Mum, so when they leave, you feel all sad. "Like ohhh, I should have played the wipes with them". Then Madison just stares at a wall.Kyler says how he doesn't understand it because he doesn't feel it and that things are black and white for him. He also says he's just stoked that Madison's Mum is watching the kids for the night. Madison says she just feels sadness. He boasts "I'm good!" in an energetic laughing voice.Kyler goes all serious and mentions that Madison said she was going to clean up the place while he was gone, but hadn't. She said she had done some....I thought this was meant to be a day off for Madison? She was in bed all day depressed and then he says THAT. Like stop trying to guilt trip her! He barely did anything."Well I'm probably going to have another panic attack in a day because I didn't get enough done I needed to. But it's too hard."And lastly, in the famous "MY HUSBAND IS THE PROBLEM" ...which I mean, Kyler you said it not us XD Madison tells us about how she's feeling."I just feel like I'm not being the Mom I want to be for my kids. I have so much anxiety and so much stress running through my body and I know I need to go on medication. I used to be so fun and relaxed and patient... and I had come up with all these fun acitivities and I was so... present in their lives, especially when the twins were little, I feel like they had so much like attention from me. Now I have all these other kids that I love... but I can't give my undivided attention to each child. I feel like, I'm like pawning the kids off to my sisters', or pawning them off to my other sister...or, I can barely get through the day with all the kids and I... I just feel like this trip was supposed to be so exciting for them. And instead, I've just been like this crazy stresscase.""I've got this meeting to go to, and Halston just fell alseep in her carseat, and I don't know... and I'm going to be late to this meeting; I don't want to wake her up. I haven't been taking care of myself very well, my milk supplies going away, cuz I don't eat or drink water all day cuz... and my brains moving at 100 miles per hour. I don't know if any of your guys have had anxiety or depression or anything like that, but you'll understand... if you do. It's really hard to take care of yourself if you have four kids too, I feel like I just do everything for them every second. I'm just trying to be honest with you guys, like I just don't feel like myself at all. I don't want to feel like this anymore, I just want to be calm, and happy like I used to be; I used to be so fun and happy! I don't know if you guys have watched my old vlogs... I don't know, I just feel like things have changed. I can't tell if I've changed, because of a chemical imbalance (or according to Cole, it that doesn't exist ;), or if life is just harder because I have 4 kids and I'm still the same person. *nervous laughter* this vlog is turning into Madison's emotional disaster vlog... Madison's pity party.Thoughts? https://ift.tt/eA8V8J https://ift.tt/3fznudI
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