My life is a funk

You here people say things like “you’re just in a funk, you’ll snap out of it.” Or, it will pass think positively, do something nice for somebody. I feel like I try so hard, and that’s the part about psychiatry and the mental health system I think is pure bullshit. They say we have a chemical imbalance, that we’re wired wrong, and that a pill will fix it. I’ve been on a lot of those pills in my times, and of anything they make you numb, you don’t feel anything. But what I disagree with is that it’s just all in our head, when in all reality there’s terrible things that happen in the world and in our lives every single day. Somebody says something pretty much every single day that makes me upset, or angry, or sad. I hear a news story or somebody tells me something about current events, and it makes me feel bad. That’s the way the idea of psychiatry and mental health facilities s pure crap. When outside factors are causing you to feel like shit, it has nothing to do with how the chemicals in your brain work, and it’s a load of bullshit. How is hearing about a school shooting, or being talked down to by a therapist, or having someone say something rude to you, caused by a chemical imbalance in my brain? It doesn’t make a single bit of sense and it just goes to show mental health professionals have absolutely no clue what it is they’re doing.

Anyway, I feel like my life is a funk. It’s like shitty things just happen, and happen, and happen, nothing good ever comes of any of it. And I’m just trapped in this life where people treat each other like shit and bad things happen and the answer to it somehow is that I take a pill. I don’t wanna be here, I don’t want to be involved in this place where even supposedly “happy people”, live in a home where your wife is probably cheating on you, one of your kids is probably sniffing glue, and the other kid hates you because they’re having hormones and hate life also.

It isn’t worth it. I have these terrible circumstances and shitty people everywhere and taking a pill is supposed to make me feel better that everybody is a dickhead, including mental health “professionals”. Somehow controlling me and turning every aspect of my life into a play about meaningless nihilism, where the purpose at best is to experience tragedy. I’ve been sexually assaulted when I was 5, I’ve been beaten by my dad unconscious, I was abused by my mother, I have no desire for a girlfriend because it just ends in something shitty where we end up hating each other and I don’t want that. I have nothing, I am nothing, so are you, and tomorrow we could wake up having our brains blown out by a cop that thinks they have the right to lord over us because we were being naughty, or I could be struck by lightning, or hit by a bus on my way to work. And somehow, that’s better than if I just ended it years ago when I became suicidal. How is that better? How is this better? You aren’t going to convince me somehow any of this is good.

You here people say things like “you’re just in a funk, you’ll snap out of it.” Or, it will pass think positively, do something nice for somebody. I feel like I try so hard, and that’s the part about psychiatry and the mental health system I think is pure bullshit. They say we have a chemical imbalance, that we’re wired wrong, and that a pill will fix it. I’ve been on a lot of those pills in my times, and of anything they make you numb, you don’t feel anything. But what I disagree with is that it’s just all in our head, when in all reality there’s terrible things that happen in the world and in our lives every single day. Somebody says something pretty much every single day that makes me upset, or angry, or sad. I hear a news story or somebody tells me something about current events, and it makes me feel bad. That’s the way the idea of psychiatry and mental health facilities s pure crap. When outside factors are causing you to feel like shit, it has nothing to do with how the chemicals in your brain work, and it’s a load of bullshit. How is hearing about a school shooting, or being talked down to by a therapist, or having someone say something rude to you, caused by a chemical imbalance in my brain? It doesn’t make a single bit of sense and it just goes to show mental health professionals have absolutely no clue what it is they’re doing.Anyway, I feel like my life is a funk. It’s like shitty things just happen, and happen, and happen, nothing good ever comes of any of it. And I’m just trapped in this life where people treat each other like shit and bad things happen and the answer to it somehow is that I take a pill. I don’t wanna be here, I don’t want to be involved in this place where even supposedly “happy people”, live in a home where your wife is probably cheating on you, one of your kids is probably sniffing glue, and the other kid hates you because they’re having hormones and hate life also.It isn’t worth it. I have these terrible circumstances and shitty people everywhere and taking a pill is supposed to make me feel better that everybody is a dickhead, including mental health “professionals”. Somehow controlling me and turning every aspect of my life into a play about meaningless nihilism, where the purpose at best is to experience tragedy. I’ve been sexually assaulted when I was 5, I’ve been beaten by my dad unconscious, I was abused by my mother, I have no desire for a girlfriend because it just ends in something shitty where we end up hating each other and I don’t want that. I have nothing, I am nothing, so are you, and tomorrow we could wake up having our brains blown out by a cop that thinks they have the right to lord over us because we were being naughty, or I could be struck by lightning, or hit by a bus on my way to work. And somehow, that’s better than if I just ended it years ago when I became suicidal. How is that better? How is this better? You aren’t going to convince me somehow any of this is good. https://ift.tt/eA8V8J https://ift.tt/3u0PtHx