No relationship goes without it's qualms but I am happy to be in my long term, monogamous relationship with my partner of almost 3 years now and watch it blossom and grow as we do individually. But over the past couple months I have felt myself withdraw, and my partner is very much caught up in their own personal growth so I don't think they notice. Part of my withdrawal has included vivid dreams while sleeping, and intrusive sexual thoughts while awake. These thoughts are of me, being unfaithful to my partner, and sexually exploring other people entirely. People I do not know at all, simply imaginary. I don't go sexually unsatisfied in my current relationship, and I have had ample encounters with partners prior to this relationship. So I don't consciously feel as though I am missing out on anything, or I am unhappy or unattracted with my partner. In fact, I struggle with hormonal imbalances that make my own libido fluctuate severely, and my partner respects that thoroughly. We must both be fully in the mood and present to be intimate together, regardless of how long it may go inbetween. Regardless of that, these intrusive thoughts remain. I feel so conflicted but for what feels like no reason? I'm not sure what to make of it.
No relationship goes without it's qualms but I am happy to be in my long term, monogamous relationship with my partner of almost 3 years now and watch it blossom and grow as we do individually. But over the past couple months I have felt myself withdraw, and my partner is very much caught up in their own personal growth so I don't think they notice. Part of my withdrawal has included vivid dreams while sleeping, and intrusive sexual thoughts while awake. These thoughts are of me, being unfaithful to my partner, and sexually exploring other people entirely. People I do not know at all, simply imaginary. I don't go sexually unsatisfied in my current relationship, and I have had ample encounters with partners prior to this relationship. So I don't consciously feel as though I am missing out on anything, or I am unhappy or unattracted with my partner. In fact, I struggle with hormonal imbalances that make my own libido fluctuate severely, and my partner respects that thoroughly. We must both be fully in the mood and present to be intimate together, regardless of how long it may go inbetween. Regardless of that, these intrusive thoughts remain. I feel so conflicted but for what feels like no reason? I'm not sure what to make of it. https://ift.tt/eA8V8J https://ift.tt/3mgATJg
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