I experience dysphoria the majority of the time- sometimes way worse than others. But sometimes I can go awhile without dysphoria. The longest I didn’t feel dysphoric was about 9 months- and now it came right back worse than ever
I struggle with PCOS. it’s a hormonal imbalance which causes me to have higher testosterone levels than most cis girls. When my T levels are high, my dysphoria gets really bad and I don’t have periods. When my T levels are low, I don’t experience dysphoria. It’s just a lack of gender or a neutral feeling (like agender-ness) I have never felt connected to girlhood, feminine terms and she/her pronouns. I’m just okay with them when I experience that "agender" feeling.
My gender identity is a constant back and forth of wether or not I should transition (socially and physically) . Because occasionally I’m okay- I feel neutral with my body and identity. And other times I cry in the shower, get uncomfortable when clothes fit me "too tight" and cringe when people use she/her pronouns on me. But of course, that’s just the tip of the iceberg.
Does anyone know if started T the back and forth would stop?
(I’ve tried estrogen & birth control to help my pcos. It actually did relieve dysphoria & give me periods. but it makes me extremely sick)
TDLR/Extra info: im 14- and I literally can’t start T yet and I don’t plan on it until im at least older or diagnosed with dysphoria. Im just curious, since birth control/estrogen made my dysphoria go away- would T make my gender crisis stop and give me a sense of gender stability?
I experience dysphoria the majority of the time- sometimes way worse than others. But sometimes I can go awhile without dysphoria. The longest I didn’t feel dysphoric was about 9 months- and now it came right back worse than everI struggle with PCOS. it’s a hormonal imbalance which causes me to have higher testosterone levels than most cis girls. When my T levels are high, my dysphoria gets really bad and I don’t have periods. When my T levels are low, I don’t experience dysphoria. It’s just a lack of gender or a neutral feeling (like agender-ness) I have never felt connected to girlhood, feminine terms and she/her pronouns. I’m just okay with them when I experience that "agender" feeling.My gender identity is a constant back and forth of wether or not I should transition (socially and physically) . Because occasionally I’m okay- I feel neutral with my body and identity. And other times I cry in the shower, get uncomfortable when clothes fit me "too tight" and cringe when people use she/her pronouns on me. But of course, that’s just the tip of the iceberg.Does anyone know if started T the back and forth would stop?(I’ve tried estrogen & birth control to help my pcos. It actually did relieve dysphoria & give me periods. but it makes me extremely sick)TDLR/Extra info: im 14- and I literally can’t start T yet and I don’t plan on it until im at least older or diagnosed with dysphoria. Im just curious, since birth control/estrogen made my dysphoria go away- would T make my gender crisis stop and give me a sense of gender stability? https://ift.tt/el4YIna https://ift.tt/KBS65vo
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