Female age 20
Prescription meds: -weaning off Lexapro 10mg after about 2 years -started Wellbutrin 150mg beginning April -singular for allergies, but not currently taking -flonase for allergies -I have had an IUD for two years (before that, I started the shot at age 14, and took pills and the ring back and forth from 16-18)
Nonprescription: -Zyrtec (unknown mg) while waiting for my singular
History/context:
I have had depression since I was like 12 years old. I have had generalized anxiety my entire life. I also developed PTSD when I was around 14. I have learned to cope with the anxiety pretty well and have been trying new medications for both, but it’s not going great. I tried Zoloft and it made me too impulsive and I couldn’t find any real signs of getting better. Lexapro murders my sex drive, gives me horrible withdrawals if I forget to take it, and also shows no obvious signs of getting better. I am on my way to get a sleep study this year because I believe I have a nightmare disorder. My dreams are super vivid and awful, and I am always tired no matter how much sleep I get. I sleep between 8 and 13 hours on average. I wake up around noon whether I go to bed at 12 or 4am.
Problem:
My depression, I’ve learned, doesn’t act like depression is supposed to. Often, I feel fine and have to even question if I really have depression. I’ve had many instances where I wondered if I was just faking it or being dramatic because I feel fine for weeks. Then I get depressed again. It is not consistent whatsoever. Sometimes I’m depressed for a matter of days, sometimes for the better part of a month. Always back and forth, and this happened even before trying medication. One therapist wondered it it was due to hormones and maybe fluctuated based on ovulation, but I no longer ovulate or have periods. I don’t know if it could be a hormonal imbalance or possibly a misdiagnosis of some kind. My last doctor heard this and said that she wondered why nobody considered a mood stabilizer and only gives me antidepressants. The only other thing I’ve considered would be bipolar disorder, but I never present in a truly manic state, so I feel that may not be it. I do experience some highs where I’m impulsive and inspired, but I am always tired and never experience that inability to sleep for multiple days.
Questions:
Has anyone else experienced or seen depression like this?
Is there any health issues or imbalances I should consider getting tested for?
Are there any other disorders or things I should look into that may describe this better?
If you have any ideas about a sleeping disorder related to my experiences, I’d also love some guidance with that.
Female age 20Prescription meds: -weaning off Lexapro 10mg after about 2 years -started Wellbutrin 150mg beginning April -singular for allergies, but not currently taking -flonase for allergies -I have had an IUD for two years (before that, I started the shot at age 14, and took pills and the ring back and forth from 16-18)Nonprescription: -Zyrtec (unknown mg) while waiting for my singularHistory/context:I have had depression since I was like 12 years old. I have had generalized anxiety my entire life. I also developed PTSD when I was around 14. I have learned to cope with the anxiety pretty well and have been trying new medications for both, but it’s not going great. I tried Zoloft and it made me too impulsive and I couldn’t find any real signs of getting better. Lexapro murders my sex drive, gives me horrible withdrawals if I forget to take it, and also shows no obvious signs of getting better. I am on my way to get a sleep study this year because I believe I have a nightmare disorder. My dreams are super vivid and awful, and I am always tired no matter how much sleep I get. I sleep between 8 and 13 hours on average. I wake up around noon whether I go to bed at 12 or 4am.Problem:My depression, I’ve learned, doesn’t act like depression is supposed to. Often, I feel fine and have to even question if I really have depression. I’ve had many instances where I wondered if I was just faking it or being dramatic because I feel fine for weeks. Then I get depressed again. It is not consistent whatsoever. Sometimes I’m depressed for a matter of days, sometimes for the better part of a month. Always back and forth, and this happened even before trying medication. One therapist wondered it it was due to hormones and maybe fluctuated based on ovulation, but I no longer ovulate or have periods. I don’t know if it could be a hormonal imbalance or possibly a misdiagnosis of some kind. My last doctor heard this and said that she wondered why nobody considered a mood stabilizer and only gives me antidepressants. The only other thing I’ve considered would be bipolar disorder, but I never present in a truly manic state, so I feel that may not be it. I do experience some highs where I’m impulsive and inspired, but I am always tired and never experience that inability to sleep for multiple days.Questions:Has anyone else experienced or seen depression like this?Is there any health issues or imbalances I should consider getting tested for?Are there any other disorders or things I should look into that may describe this better?If you have any ideas about a sleeping disorder related to my experiences, I’d also love some guidance with that. https://ift.tt/BxGb5qh https://ift.tt/cFs8hx9
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