Two years ago I went through a traumatic event, a conclusion for a problem that had gone throughout my childhood. And in those two years, I spent 20 months working constantly, barely having time to sit down and think. It was physically tiring but I also did activities that I enjoyed. I met a lot of people and visited new places.
This summer, however, I got the break that I was longing for. And my anxiety skyrocketed. At first I didn't notice because I felt relaxed, even though I had terrible insomnia and would spend days sleeping an average of 3-4 hours.
Then I started sleeping a bit more and my face broke out. I've never had a breakout like this.
And now I have terrible anxiety. I wake up everyday at 4 or 5 am with anxiety attacks.
I make stupid mistakes for no reason, it's like my brain is not rational. And when I try to remember what I was thinking, I can't. Every mistake I make seems immense, too.
The only two reasons I see are a physical illness, maybe a hormonal imbalance of some sort, or an effect of the experience I went through, which I can't put behind no matter how much I want to, because I'm still dealing with the aftermath. I also used to get lots of flashes of my old life, not unpleasant things, but they would remind me of where I am right now and make me upset. They happened every time I relaxed.
Does it sound possible? Or am I dealing with anxiety and trying to blame it on something else? I've felt like this on occasion but never so constantly. I don't know what to do.
Two years ago I went through a traumatic event, a conclusion for a problem that had gone throughout my childhood. And in those two years, I spent 20 months working constantly, barely having time to sit down and think. It was physically tiring but I also did activities that I enjoyed. I met a lot of people and visited new places.This summer, however, I got the break that I was longing for. And my anxiety skyrocketed. At first I didn't notice because I felt relaxed, even though I had terrible insomnia and would spend days sleeping an average of 3-4 hours.Then I started sleeping a bit more and my face broke out. I've never had a breakout like this.And now I have terrible anxiety. I wake up everyday at 4 or 5 am with anxiety attacks. I make stupid mistakes for no reason, it's like my brain is not rational. And when I try to remember what I was thinking, I can't. Every mistake I make seems immense, too.The only two reasons I see are a physical illness, maybe a hormonal imbalance of some sort, or an effect of the experience I went through, which I can't put behind no matter how much I want to, because I'm still dealing with the aftermath. I also used to get lots of flashes of my old life, not unpleasant things, but they would remind me of where I am right now and make me upset. They happened every time I relaxed.Does it sound possible? Or am I dealing with anxiety and trying to blame it on something else? I've felt like this on occasion but never so constantly. I don't know what to do. https://ift.tt/zoYOV30 https://ift.tt/fNOqH3j
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