Daydreaming
I have always had a fear of “becoming unaware of ones self so much so they self destruct” because I grew up always seeing people’s shadows? I couldn’t imagine I would come out differently. Assuming it must be genetic? Unfortunately I have also realized that there’s still time left for me and my mind. I find peace in recognizing I’m only a quarter deep. Maybe this is just a quarter-life crisis? …Or else I really gotta address this? Or maybe my crisis comes from chemical imbalances like hormones out of my control. So do I just stop worrying about it? I’ve been diagnosed with OCD, so compulsive daydreaming isn’t “crazy” for me. Technically! But I enjoy with letting myself indulge for the sake of art. I love my mind movies. Should I work towards becoming a director/producer of film? So I can finally get the movies out of my dreams or psyche? Although music is kinda my thing- So do I sing? But pencil to paper, brush to paint is technically my best skill technically. So do I stick to that thing? Or simply- Do I just stop the daydreaming? It’s been getting disorderly- Or is it just me ignoring my psychic thing? Are my daydreams stories of ghosts in the older buildings? Cause like fuck thats just interesting. I guess I wish I was better at maneuvering and moving my energy. Some way that’s more helpful to me? I gotta find balance ultimately. Am I just lazy?
Daydreaming I have always had a fear of “becoming unaware of ones self so much so they self destruct” because I grew up always seeing people’s shadows?I couldn’t imagine I would come out differently. Assuming it must be genetic?Unfortunately I have also realized that there’s still time left for me and my mind. I find peace in recognizing I’m only a quarter deep. Maybe this is just a quarter-life crisis? …Or else I really gotta address this? Or maybe my crisis comes from chemical imbalances like hormones out of my control. So do I just stop worrying about it? I’ve been diagnosed with OCD, so compulsive daydreaming isn’t “crazy” for me. Technically!But I enjoy with letting myself indulge for the sake of art. I love my mind movies. Should I work towards becoming a director/producer of film? So I can finally get the movies out of my dreams or psyche? Although music is kinda my thing- So do I sing? But pencil to paper, brush to paint is technically my best skill technically. So do I stick to that thing? Or simply- Do I just stop the daydreaming? It’s been getting disorderly- Or is it just me ignoring my psychic thing? Are my daydreams stories of ghosts in the older buildings? Cause like fuck thats just interesting. I guess I wish I was better at maneuvering and moving my energy. Some way that’s more helpful to me? I gotta find balance ultimately. Am I just lazy? https://ift.tt/5dHLTb8 https://ift.tt/Fg4bm6I
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