i (22F) have never pictured myself having children or being pregnant. the thought of pregnancy makes me physically nauseous. i have tried to open myself up to having children since meeting my now boyfriend (24M) since he desperately wants kids. but whenever i see a pregnant person i think they look (i’m so sorry) but so gross and unfortunate. even if they are happy being pregnant i have SO much sympathy for them. they are fat, bloated, and their body isn’t theirs anymore. (imo) the purely exist for the reproduction of another human. i am NOT saying any of this is true these are just my feelings.
recently i saw my very first picture of a post partum belly and i cried. i cried for her. i cried for me. i could never live with myself if i ever looked like that. i hate my body as it is. (not fishing for compliments) i am 5’8 145ish lbs, i have a little belly fat which makes me truly hate myself and the way i look. me, having so much self hatred now, could never produce a child and look like that.
(cue me crying) people talk about “the miracle of childbirth”. imo it sounds like a prison sentence. women (some) spend their entire life trying to look appealing, skinny, fit, tight body, clear skin. and once you get pregnant you gain weight, get (virtually) irreversible stretch marks, dark spots, crazy hormone imbalances. then you are stuck with a (child) leech who literally feeds off of you, is thankless, and costs THOUSANDS of dollars. men get to walk away from conception with autonomy and the privilege to just walk away. even if women gave their kid up for adoption, they are still STUCK in their deflated, unattractive, unappealing bodies.
i can live with having kids if it’s through IVF and surrogate. as long as i am the breadwinner and my husband/boyfriend (24M) primarily cares for the kids. does this make me an awful woman? so many people who i’ve told i didn’t want kids tells me i will change my mind when i “mature”. i don’t think i will.
tldr: i (by choice) can never be pregnant. my bf knows this & is still with me even tho he wants kids. do i break up with him so he can have kids with a “normal”(?) woman?
i (22F) have never pictured myself having children or being pregnant. the thought of pregnancy makes me physically nauseous. i have tried to open myself up to having children since meeting my now boyfriend (24M) since he desperately wants kids. but whenever i see a pregnant person i think they look (i’m so sorry) but so gross and unfortunate. even if they are happy being pregnant i have SO much sympathy for them. they are fat, bloated, and their body isn’t theirs anymore. (imo) the purely exist for the reproduction of another human. i am NOT saying any of this is true these are just my feelings. recently i saw my very first picture of a post partum belly and i cried. i cried for her. i cried for me. i could never live with myself if i ever looked like that. i hate my body as it is. (not fishing for compliments) i am 5’8 145ish lbs, i have a little belly fat which makes me truly hate myself and the way i look. me, having so much self hatred now, could never produce a child and look like that. (cue me crying)people talk about “the miracle of childbirth”. imo it sounds like a prison sentence. women (some) spend their entire life trying to look appealing, skinny, fit, tight body, clear skin. and once you get pregnant you gain weight, get (virtually) irreversible stretch marks, dark spots, crazy hormone imbalances. then you are stuck with a (child) leech who literally feeds off of you, is thankless, and costs THOUSANDS of dollars. men get to walk away from conception with autonomy and the privilege to just walk away. even if women gave their kid up for adoption, they are still STUCK in their deflated, unattractive, unappealing bodies. i can live with having kids if it’s through IVF and surrogate. as long as i am the breadwinner and my husband/boyfriend (24M) primarily cares for the kids. does this make me an awful woman? so many people who i’ve told i didn’t want kids tells me i will change my mind when i “mature”. i don’t think i will. tldr: i (by choice) can never be pregnant. my bf knows this & is still with me even tho he wants kids. do i break up with him so he can have kids with a “normal”(?) woman? https://ift.tt/dT4p2ws https://ift.tt/ug5bqhH
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